Are you happy now..by Michelle Branch


No, don't just walk away
Pretending everything's ok
And you don't care about me
And I know there's just no use
When all your lies become your truths and I don't care
Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

You took all there was to take
And left me with an empty plate
And you don't care about it
And I, I've given up this game
And leaving you with all the blame cause I don't care

Do you really have everything you want?
You can never give somethin' you ain't got.
You can't run away from yourself

Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I've had that all I can take
And I'm about to break
Cause I'm happy now
Are you happy now?
source:www.lyrics.com

I can't beilieve it....Hoda emailed!!her email has been the best thing happening for the past few days..I love you soooooo much..I can't wait to see you Hoda joonam..I don't know why am I stuck in this stupid country...with no future in it for me..I am getting more depressed than ever..I know if I see you guys I will feel better..I can't say how much I miss you and how much I wish my life would be different...I can't beilieve that a simple event made me to find you again..thank you God..although you are not kind to me now but at least you gave me the second best thing in the world..

Today is one of those days that I just want to SCREAM!!!!I have become so pessimistic about my life and career that I don't know what to do..I tried so hard not to cry in front of everyone in the lab today:(...how can a situation cause so much dark depression for me?I don't know....I have tried not to think about it..but it has changed my life's point of view so drastically..I think when you think logically you go through all that mathematical induction and the finite equations and try to resolve life problem..it won't work...My math teachers used to tell us that math is applicable in lifes problems..but I am begining to realize that at least its not applicabale to my situations..and lets not talk about emotions..since I have decided to become completely heartless toward everything, at least I am going to try..although I know that my nature is not like that..:(

well why do I go through all these different activities...I guess I don't know what drives me exactly either..I just know that I am so curious to learn about everything that exsits that I can't just sit somewhere and do nothing..the reason why I chose fencing for example is not just learn the techniques but I learn something far more important about life within those techniques...its like learning Marchal arts..why would you go through it..what are the chances that you ever use it?well its not the moves that I think are important, its the purification process, the fact that you realize the presence of a being without looking back and more that I think is the goal...I think the fact that you are not complete and the fact that you need to improve yourself is my motto in life..if you stay in the same spot, you rot..I want to learn new things from this teacher who has totally different outlook of life..he has lived for sometime in this life and he has experiences to share but its within those lessons..now its my time to learn it from him and pass it on to others

Tango!!

Can't wait to learn Tango..

http://www.fencing.net/
SPEECHLESS!!

I can't describe the fencing class...unbelivable:)I loved it..love the teacher, the TA's and the students:)..the funny thing is that the teacher looks like Robin Hood;)with an English Accent...very very cool...can't wait to learn more moves..we learned the steps forward and backward and luange..and we got to use the blades!!

http://www.fencing.net/

1:30 hours left to my fencing class..I am alone in the lab with the radion on...surfing the web...is there anything more boring than that??anyways no pain no gain;)

Note to self,
1)keep your mouth shut for 5 month...may be your damn problem gets solved,
2)be patient
3)take a risk
4)don't give a damn for what everyone else thinks
5)live like there is no tomorrow may be today is really your last day..
Thank you God..I know you always after my best interest..and in this world there is no one who I can trust more than you who can guide me to the right way...I think its safe to say now that I love you...I think you have been my true love...thanks again and can't wait to see what your next advanture for me would be.

why does events keep happening at the same time?I got invited to two weddings this summer..and guess which day they are organized!!!well one is on a friday and the other is on the next day!!saturday..and ofcourse the rest of the summer there is no weddings;)any one wants to get married here?

Oh My God!!!

Yesterday one of my middle school friends found me on Orkut!!!!!!!!I was so happy to hear from her and see her picture that I couldn't stop smiling..I can't beilieve it...I can't wait to find other ones...Sharhzad used to sit next to me on the second row when we were grade 8 at Ayeen Roushan:)...